How is it best to describe a feeling.
A feeling that cannot be translated into words.
How to say I am empty, but still alive,
when everything I try is a shell to my meaning.
How to describe the ringing in my ears,
constant and endless,
and distorting my mind.
The silence in my chest,
hollow and bare.
My tightening gut,
when I'm at my lowest.
The pain at the back of my eye,
when I can't stand to see.
My quivering hand,
threatening to end it all.
And my 'self',
which wants me to live.